User:Angelus dolorum
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[edit] angelus dolorum
First let us define words using LATIN:
angelus : angel.
dolor : pain, grief, misery, suffering.
dolorum : Genitive. (see below for definition)
Genitive :
1 : of, relating to, or constituting a grammatical case marking typically a relationship of possessor or source; as in possessive
2 : expressing a relationship that in some inflected languages is often marked by a genitive case -- used especially of English prepositional phrases introduced by of
[edit] angel of pain
About me:
I am a 3rd generation irish girl. My grandfather Noel, came to the U.S. from Ireland. I am a writer and poet who specializes in writings from a slave/submissive point of view. My pen name is angelus dolorum (always signed in lower case as my personal preference) and it was given to me over 10 years ago by a Dominant named Lady Katherine from the UK I met on ICQ. Before I die, I want to write and see published a book of my poems. When I do I will be proud to sign it with this, my pen name.
I feel that it fits me. My parents died when I was a child, I shuffled around from person to person, every one wants a orphan girl whose Momma was rich. I have been through a lot of things that would have broken most people in two. Incest, Molestation, Crazed Mistresses with BIG fists, more death of family and friends than is normal in 1 life time.
I write to express my pain, who I am, what I need, desire, crave.
Although true, I am owned by Someone, I am property. I also am myself, my own person as well. I can be a girl, a boi, a freak with my eyebrow piercing, a business womyn, a nurturing mother type and at least one girl calls me Daddy occasionally. I have in the past been a Top, a Dominant. I have fucked men, women, and when drunk who knows what else. I can share my opinion in a new york minute and yet also know from just one look from Her when to STFU.
Here are two of my poems: (Please don't edit or steal my work)
[edit] Words...
Words can affect me.
Like vast volumes of Sadism unleashed
Or like soft hands caressing my soul
Words can be physical.
Cut into me with Pain like a knife.
Cause me to tremble uncontrollably.
Words can be liberating or enslave me.
The need to hear something so badly i ache.
The knowing again from Her mouth "i am good"
Words can give pleasure and pain simultaneously.
One whisper at the right moment.
Lashes applied verbally.
Sex, Riches, House, Cars
Mere Items to have and pay for.
Words from Her.
Priceless.
i choose words...
everytime.
[edit] Mental Ligotage
No words need be spoken by You to “affect” me inside. Nor do You have to touch me to make a formal introduction.
Yes, I already know You….
Like Your non-stop intercourse with my head, the look that ties me up inside. And the way You play Your mental ligotage on my brain.
Did You think I would fail to know You? To recognize “the One”? How could I not know She who will control me with the mere raise of an eyebrow?
Not a chance, Ma’am.
I’m strong but also am prepared for those times when You will make me cry & either never know You did or know and enjoy each tear that streaks this slave’s face.
How do I know You?
I can smell You, sense You, the moment You enter the room I become acute to Your presence as You take in everything in a glance, knowing where I am at, feel my eyes watching You Without ever breaking away from the eye contact You hold with the one who greets You.
You’re the one who gets attention upon demand and the one who will teach me that demanding attention gets me none. Your lack of words lends to the mind fuck that You probably aren’t even aware You’re giving me. I hang back in the crowd, merely watching, hoping to see a nod that says, “I want” so I might “do”.
Truly, I have practiced in my mind each possible interaction and moment with You and yet when each comes I’m sure that I will be properly shocked, wide-eyed aware of how totally out of my control everything really is..
Until then, I practice my breathing, my patience because nothing less will do me any good, Your silence teaches that also.
© angelus dolorum 2004
More about angelus dolorum aka "The Angel of Pain" can be found at: The Angel of Pain Website
My other interests include: Playing World of Warcraft, Watching West Wing and Gilmore Girls, and did I mention I am for the most part 99% lesbian? *grins* (being owned there's that 1% I reserve for the knowledge that I am really not allowed a TRUE preference since She has the last word.)
